There are certain moments,
certain points of realisation,
that can hit you suddenly
and take you by surprise.
Like when you see him hurt/in pain,
emotionally or physically
(it doesnt matter).
and the only thing you need in the
world is to make it better.
To stop the pain.
or when you realise that protecting
him is now your first instinct,
because it will break you to see him hurt.
Or when you realise that it no longer
matters how you yourself are,
all you need is for him to be happy.
Or the moment where you see him and
his smile brightens your previously
awful day.
Those are the moments that will hit you
suddenly when you then realise just how
much you need him,
and just how much you are and will
always be, in love with him.

today is one of the happiest day.
C was hugging me all day long.
just wished time would stop.
just wished we would be like this
all the time.

i am commitment phobic.
that's the sole reason why i dont date.
but he came, turned my whole world
upside down, inside out.
and now i am ever so certain
he's the one for me.

i like the feel of my name on your lips.
and i like the sound of your gentle kiss
the way that your fingers run through
my hair.
and how your scent lingers even
when you're not there.


/he is the one i would spend my life with.
sixteen days.